Knowing Yourself 💛

do you truly know who you are?

what comes to mind, if i ask “who are you?”

is it your name? your ethnicity? your religion? where you’re from? or something else?

these are just base level attributes, but who are you really?

do you know yourself?

you’re probably thinking, of course I know myself

but I’ll be vulnerable here, and tell you, i don’t.

when people ask me that question, I’ll say the same things we all say

my name is.. i’m 21 years old.. i’m a senior in college….i like to go to cafes and read.

but that doesn’t sit right with me.

so i started really reflecting on myself lately, and here’s a few things i came up with. feel free to answer as you read along.

what makes me feel the most proud of myself?

helping others, creating something new, speaking up when something is unfair

what makes me angry?

when I’m misunderstood, when things are unfair, and when people are fake

who do i admire?

people who are bold enough to be themselves and don’t feel the need to conform.

what would hurt me the most to be called?

fake, selfish, unreliable

if i had unlimited money, what would i spend my time doing?

traveling, working out, cooking, painting, learning new things

based on these few questions, what are my core values?

authenticity, justice, and growth.

what makes me feel most like me, or the best about myself?

creating, anything - writing, painting, crocheting

what colors, sounds, smells make me feel happiest?

Yellow, the sound and smell of rain

what would disappoint me if i never tried doing it?

starting a business

whats one thing i would feel incomplete without?

a life without kids

am i a lover or a fighter?

a lover. me in love is a beast…but the kind that would burn the world down just to keep you warm. and maybe my love is a bit much for people, which is why they leave. but I’ll never regret pouring myself into anyone i truly cared for. the only time I’m a fighter is when it’s for someone i love.

what kind of like do i want to create?

a simple life, with a loving family, that’s stable and never worried about the next paycheck, one where i can be ready for anything, and pursue my hobbies without a care in the world, a life that’s distant from the dangers of the world, with only a few close friends/family members, a private life where no one cares how i spend my days, a healthy life where i can go hiking or snowboarding or scuba diving without having to worry about getting tired, a life that’s full of love and positivity

and by asking these few questions, I’ve learned a little bit more about myself.

so the next time someone asks who i am, i’ll know

i am someone who values authenticity over approval, who would rather be misunderstood than fake.

i am someone who feels most alive when i’m creating, when my hands are busy, when my mind is learning, when something new exists because i made it.

i am someone rooted in justice, softened by love. a lover first, but a fighter when it comes to protecting the people and values that matter to me.

i am someone who needs growth like air - new places, new skills, new ideas, but who dreams of a simple, steady life filled with warmth, rain-soaked mornings, yellow light, and a family that feels like home.

i am someone who wants to build - a business, a safe space, a loving household, a body strong enough for adventure, a life private enough to protect my peace.

i am not fake.
i am not selfish.
i am not unreliable.

i am intense in my love, intentional in my values, and deeply committed to becoming better than I was yesterday.

next time someone asks me who i am, i’ll know

i am a creator, a protector, a truth-speaker, and a woman building a life rooted in love, growth, and quiet strength.