always you 💌

this is a little different from what i usually write. this lyrics for this song were inspired by my post on “the first love”.

verse 1

we were seventeen, playing house in a world too big

tracing lines on our palms, making promises we couldn’t keep

i didn’t know what “forever” meant, i just knew your name

but we burned the map before we even started the game

now i’m scrolling through the years, seeing how much we’ve changed

you’re a ghost in a suit, and i’m a stranger in a frame.

chorus

‘cause i’ve been looking for your heartbeat in a thousand different rooms

comparing every “hello” to the way i felt with you

they’re just shadows in the hallway, they don’t even come close

of all the things i’ve let go, i still miss you the most

yeah, we’re worlds apart, and the bridge is long gone

but you’re the first page of my book, and you’re still my favorite song

no, it won’t work now… god knows we’ve grown

but you’ll always be the first love that i ever known.

verse 2

i’ve tried to find a “perfect” that looks a bit like us

but everything feels hollow, and everything feels rushed

they say the first one hits the hardest, and i guess they’re right

‘cause I’m still chasing ghosts in the middle of the night

we’ve been friends, we’ve been strangers, we’ve even played at hate

just to keep from admitting that we left it all to fate

i see your face in every crowd, your name on every street

the blueprint that i’m following is one i can’t repeat.

the bridge

i had the world in my hands, but i didn’t know the weight

i let a diamond slip through, and i called it “fate.”

i admit it, i’m the one who tore the pages out

i traded a “forever” for a little bit of doubt.

And i’ve tried to find a “you” in every man i meet

but I’m just a ghost walking on a one-way street!

if i had a million lives, a million chances to choose...

i’d still lose it all just to get back to you!

outro

i’m still at the crossroads, watching the shadows grow

still holding onto secrets that i should’ve let go.

they say time heals the heart, but mine’s still in the past

comparing every “future” to a love that couldn’t last.

you’re the home i can’t live in, the song i can’t skip

the name that’s still sitting on the edge of my lips.

in this life, and the next... and a million times over...

it was always you.

always been you.